Sunday, 11 January 2009
friday, was cca showcase. and i slacked. I was planning not to slack la. but i too busy emoing.. totally no mood at all..
since not many people read my blog.. im not gonna care wat i post liao.. zz..
is like.. 1month plus ler.. then all these days i told myself, he doesn't love me anymore la, so i don't need to care so much le.. then i reli never think much.. sometimes ya maybe.. but usually no..
then during recess on fri, dexter hor, come ask me some questions.. he asked me.. dowan post wat he ask.. haii.. then i asked something i shouldn't have ask.. cause i got to know something.. 1month++ i keep lying to myself.. haii.. i asked sihui again.. and she like reconfirm it.. IM LYING TO MYSELF.. haii.. so now i have hopes..
i keep thinking about it.. got 2 thoughts..
1) IT WILL NEVER COME TRUE!!
- i believe he won ask me.. i don tink he will.. i don tink he tinks like that at all.. i tink that dex
and sihui got it all wrong.. u interpretted his reactions wrongly!! even if he does think like
that. i dont tink he is brave enought to ask me.. haii.. and then i become all sad...
2) IT WILL COME TRUE!!
- omt.. he reli tinks like that? im so freaking happy!! it's the happiest new ever this year!!!
i cant wait!!!
and these 2 thoughts happened at the freaking same time.. giving me a headache.. and i kept crying/ wanting to cry.. tears of sadness and joy.. mixed.. is like i reli want it to happen but i know it wont..
and since dex told me tat.. during cca showcase i kept looking at him.. NON STOP.. OMT.. i tried to look away.. but in the end i still will look at him.. haii.. soon i gave up trying to stop.. lookin at him wont harm me or him..
their cca played tong hua.. and i cried when i heard it.. cause got one line（也许你不会懂，从你说爱我以后，我的天空星星都亮了。） yupp.. that line.. it was tat line i heard then i started to cry.. was it stupid? haii.. cause that line is like so true to me.. haii.. cant believe im crying now too.. haii.. i tink i better stop here.. buhbye..
i love you..
i still do..
